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because nothing divine can happen to you with your will,

rather, your will is the only barrier.

Say wholeheartedly: Thy will be done!

And feel it

and live it.

Come home soon,

I am waiting for you,

and much is waiting to happen to you also.

I know you are skeptical.

That is not bad

but a good beginning to start with.

Wherever there is mind there is skepticism.

Mind is skepticism

and therefore conflict.

That is the way of the mind

and its nature.

Please do not fight with it

nor be identified with it.

These are the obvious alternatives,

but both are false,

and aspects of the same coin.

You will have to walk in between.

Come and be with me, and you will understand.

284. Dear Mukta.

Love.

Yes, you were related to Yoga Vivek in one of your past lives.

Now many things will be remembered by you soon

because the key is in your hands.

But do not think about them at all,

otherwise your imagination will get mixed up with the memories

and then it will be difficult to know

what is real and what is not.

So always be aware from now on

that you do not think about past lives:

let the memories come up by themselves.

No conscious effort on your part is needed;

on the contrary it will be a great hindrance.

Let the unconscious do the work,

you be just a witness,

and as the meditation goes deeper

many locked doors will be opened to you.

But always remember to wait for the mysteries to reveal themselves.

The seed is broken – and much is to follow.

You need only wait and be a witness.

285. Love.

Just drop yourself into the divine and be purified!

Surrender and be reborn.

Do not resist.

Let go!

286. Love.

See: this is a white paper –

it contains words.

You can look at it as white paper or as words.

Or, listen to the silence which contains a sonata;

you can be aware of the silence or of the sonata.

Or, think of the space which contains a building;

you can be aware of the space or of the building.

Or, imagine an empty house;

you can conceive of it as the walls or as an emptiness.

If you see the words, the building, the sonata and the walls

you are in the mind,

but if you see the white paper or the silence or the space

or the emptiness

then you are in meditation.

287. Love.

From sound to soundlessness is the path.

Intone a sound like A-U-M,

slowly, and as sound enters

soundlessness so do you.

Or: remain in the gap between any two sounds

and you yourself will become soundlessness.

Or: bathe in the continuous sound of a waterfall,

or any other.

Or: by putting your fingers in your ears

hear the source of all sounds –

and there will be a sudden explosion

of the silent music of the cosmos.

Using any way fall into the abyss of soundlessness

and you will achieve the divine.

288. Love.

I am thrilled with great expectations about you.

Much is to happen within you and without also.

You are on the verge of the explosion,

so be alone.

Not lonely but alone,

and live with that aloneness.

Rather, be that aloneness;

that is the only meditation for you now.

Loneliness is negative:

to be lonely is to be aware of the absence of others.

But to be alone is the most positive state of mind:

it is to be aware of the presence of oneself.

Be aware of the presence that is you.

Just be aware and wait,

wait for the happening.

Near, very near is the moment.

And remember that I am always with you.

I have always been with you

even when you did not know me.

And always feel my blessings.

289. Love.

Takuan says: You cannot bathe in solid ice,

nor can you live in a frozen consciousness –

and what is the mind except that?

Go in and find out.

Do not ask anybody,

do not go to the scriptures,

go in and find out.

Do not think about it

because that is absurd –

how can you think against the mind?

Any conclusion out of thinking

can only strengthen the mind.

Do not think because thinking

is stopping, halting and freezing.

Thinking is the disease.

Go in and find out – immediately.

A moment’s thinking

and you are again in the old rut.

A moment’s thinking

and you are as far from the real as is possible.

290. Love.

We kneel down to ourselves

because we kneel down to the gods we make

out of our experience, or out of our desires and dreams,

or out of our so-called logic and foolish arguments.

This is neither humility nor prayer,

rather, on the contrary, this is

the most egoistic attitude possible.

The truly religious mind is one which just kneels down –

not to anyone, not to any image in particular.

This kneeling down is nothing but

a flowering of one’s total nothingness.

Then this kneeling down becomes an inner way of life,

and unless prayer is such, prayer is not.

One cannot pray, one can only be prayerful.

291. Love.

You cannot run away from the self

because you are the self –

how can you run away from it?

It is like running from one’s own shadow:

all your efforts are bound to be futile.

Rather, stop and see it,

witness it, be aware of it.

Face the shadow and then – where is it?

It has never been, really.

You created it by not facing it

and you strengthened it by running from it.

Is it not time now to stop the game?

292. Love.

Search – and the ego is always somewhere behind.

Search – and in every act the ego is the motivation.

But if one can find that this is so

and can realize it,

one goes beyond it, because the very realization

is the going beyond.

Brother, said Mulla Nasruddin to a neighbor,

I am collecting to pay the debt of a poor man

who cannot meet his obligations.

Very commendable said the other, and gave him a coin.

Who is this person?

Me, said Nasruddin as he hurried away.

A few weeks later he was at the door again.

I suppose you are calling about a debt,

said the trusting neighbor.

I am.

I suppose someone can’t pay a debt

and you want a contribution?

That is so.

I suppose it is you who owes the money?

Not this time.

Well, I am glad to hear it.

Take this contribution.

Nasruddin pocketed the money.

Just one thing, Mulla –

what prompts your humanitarian sentiments

in this particular case?

Well, you see…I am the creditor!

293. Love.

Knowledge is through experiencing.

Mere information is not knowledge,

on the contrary it cannot give the clarity

which knowledge gives to the mind

and may confuse one more

because a confused mind is still more burdened with it.

Two men had played chess

regularly together for several years.

They were quite evenly matched

and there was keen rivalry between them.

Then one man began to beat his rival nearly every time they played

and the other man was completely at a loss

to understand this phenomenon.